Cindy's Life! Own It!

Time to blog again !!!

2011-04-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

It had been long long long long long long long .....................time .. since the last update :P

It was like a roller coaster.... up up...then suddenly down all the way... but tat is life right? What we need to do is to let the feeling go through us ( but pls dun dwell on it ) and move on...

Sometimes a short getaway will helps u to relax ...

Hmmm.. for this year leh.. i had went to Batam for a spa treat ... of cos more to come in May and June 2011...Looking forward leh .. will be Bintan, Genting and Bangkok and many many more ... shall blog on the travel trip when times come!

F.R.I.E.N.D

2010-09-30T05:24:00.000-07:00

How do you define "Friend" ?
-Someone that you can trust ?
-Someone that understanding you ?
-Someone that you can spend time with ?
-Someone that you willing to pour your heart out and lend a listening hear ?

Everyone got a different definition on it.
For me, at times "Friend" is very clear but at times it does not seem to exist at all. Am I taking "Friend" for granted or the other way round.. I also not sure...

Who are the one around you that you regard as "Friend" or in this society now, what are the things you regards as "Friend ". WHAT instead of WHO is being used.

WHAT = money , house, car etc... at times when you have all these, it seem that people will automatic attract to you and suddenly become your "friend". ..well it is just my personal observation. True or not , I don't think there is a need to argue as this is a belief that I have and I no need anyone to agree or disagree with this belief of mine. But I do truly believe that I have people around me that I do regard them as "Friend" in my own definition. :) [ i always said colleagues and friends are different. For those who know me, will know my definition between these two and I mean it :P ]

When the someone become your "Friend" , your expectation towards this person will change. You start to expect a bit more of this "friend"'s attention, time , understanding, care and much much more and I suppose the verse versa happen if the other party regard you as "Friend". At this point of time, when expectation is not being met, arguments and unhappiness may arise. This is where the friendship will come to a test.

A test that if both of you can resolve and score a Pass to it , this is where the friendship can last longer and more tolerance level can be obtained. If the test ends with the negative result , this friendship might be gone forever. The way you resolve the issue is really very much depending on how much do you care about the friendship. If this friendship matters to you , most of the time you will try ways and means to solve it.

For the fact, everyone will die one day, just that you don't know when this day will come. Is there really someone that you regard as "Friend" and also is it worth that you take your "Friend" for granted and letgo of them easily ?

Friends Forever!

酒窝的传说

2010-08-29T06:10:00.000-07:00

传说酒窝的来历是这样的：

相传人死后，过了鬼门关便上了黄泉路，路上盛开着只见花,不见叶的彼岸花。花叶生生两不见,相念相惜永相失,路尽头有一条河叫忘川河，河上有一座奈何桥。有个叫孟婆的女人守候在那里，给每个经过的路人递上一碗孟婆汤，凡是喝过孟婆汤的人就会忘却今生今世所有的牵绊，了无牵挂地进入六道，或为仙，或为人，或为畜。

孟婆汤又称忘情水，一喝便忘前世今生。一生爱恨情仇，一世浮沉得失，都随这碗孟婆汤遗忘得干干净净。今生牵挂之人，今生痛恨之人，来生都相见不识。

可是有那么一部分人因为种种原因，不愿意喝下孟婆汤，孟婆没办法只好答应他们。但在这些人身上做了记号，这个记号就是在脸上留下了酒窝。这样的人，必须跳入忘川河，受水淹火炙的磨折等上千年才能轮回，转世之后会带着前世的记忆、带着那个酒窝寻找前世的恋人。

所以朋友们请珍惜身边脸上有酒窝的那个人，无论是亲人、朋友，因为他（她）也许是你前世的恋人，经过千年等待来寻找前世情缘未了的人，去完成前世未了的心愿，请永远不要去伤害他（她），因为不是谁都有勇气跳入忘川河，等上千年煎熬之苦。

盼：
来生，再续前缘…
愿：
来生，还能再见…
原来偶的酒窝就是这样来的,那么今生要等的人究竟在哪里呢?

p/s: 我也有酒窝，不要伤害我：p

Shh...s.e.c.r.e.t.s

2010-08-16T10:42:00.000-07:00

Does everyone has a secret or even secrets?
Secret is meant to be kept inside within yourself? Once you had told someone about your "secret" , is that consider "secret: anymore?

Well. i believe each and everyone do have some secrets..whether it meant to be told or not, you choose it.

Today , I had a new definition for the word SECRET as my friend had shared "The Secret" DVD with me. A lot of things to ponder after watching the DVD..not the negative side but on the positive side. I started to believe "Law of attraction".

What you think ( thoughts ) is what you attract. When you think positively, your results will be positive ..of cos vice versa....

We always think of what we don't want, the more we think of it, the more "don't want" seem to be coming along ...queuing up and waiting for us....the universe is acting of our "wishes" of "don't want" and our "wishes" come true... so in this case, if we think of our "WANT wish" and the "WANT wish" will come true....is it true ? Do a self - reflection everyday and you will be able to see the results.
(Disclaimer: not just sit there and wish what you want and it will come true...tat is daydream yo! of cos ...Effort is needed ya...)

I must constantly reminding myself to believe that I can attract the results I want ..and of cos when the down time or negative feeling is here, I will feel it( not going to suppress nor blow it..try hor.. :p)forget it...and move on....

No matter what is it , I am going to start to believe this new secret of mine which is the using the "Law of Attraction" in my life now..How and where I will use it my life leh....shh... S.E.C.R.E.T.S! hehehe...

ありがとう、ニッキさんakaケンジさん。一緒に頑張ってね！：）

REDANG Trip 2010 - Sun, Beach and Sand.

2010-07-08T05:15:00.000-07:00

WOW........after so many years of watching the movie 《夏日么么茶》，i finally had the chance to step into Pulau Redang, the place where you find beautiful and clear beaches.

Day 1: :

Gather at Newton ( where my office is) @6am and we started to sit on the coach to set off to Terengganu. We dropped off at JB for a quick breakfast and this was where we started our long , long , long , long bus journey..............................................in between break for lunch............... and some toilet breaks.....................and then at 7pm ..

YES！7PM, we finally reached the famous CRYSTAL MOSQUE at Terengganu. That is about 12 hrs of bus ride yo! So we got our camera ready and got as many shots as possible as we took such a bus ride to be here to see this special mosque. NEXT, we head for our DINNER!!!!

Guess what? While we were about to finish our dinner , we got a news that our coach's tyres was punctured!!! WHAT!!!!! We need to stuck at there...supposed to go to Chinatown and have a look but it was gone. Waited for abt 1 hrs or so, we had another coach to bring us back to hotel. We reached Sutra Beach hotel at 11pm.

Day 2 : :
It was a fun day as it was a snorkeling day and be able to see beautiful beaches. I was a non-swimmer and feel excited for the snorkeling but at the same time feel scare too. Nevertheless, I still get myself ready for the snorkeling. Most important thing : APPLY SUN BLOCK FROM FACE TO TOES. hahaha.. my group really was a group that once we got chance, we would start applying sunblock...it was such a funny scene where u see abt 15 people applying the sunblock at the same time.

We reached the 1st snorkeling beach. Get ready our life jacket and the snorkel gear and here we go! I don't really dare to swim towards to the deeper part ( but there is where you can see more fishes and corals lor...) so i hesitate a bit..but with my help of my friend, Nicky, I tried to swim over and finally reached there). The 1st snorkeling place is for me to prepare myself more than enjoying. On the way back to the shore, need the help of my manager , Weiye and Mike to drag me back..hahahaha....

After lunch, we moved on to the 2nd snorkeling beach. This one was much more nicer and we able to see the fishes on the shore even without the need to swim to the deeper side. But still....do you think my friends will satisfied with just seeing the fish on the shore?NO!!! This time round, Weiye do not allow anyone to help me and wanted me to swim to the deeper part by myself... so i pushed, kicked, struggled and get myself there...hahaha...finally I reached there! ( still i got some help from Nicky and Nancy..cos we three are the best and brave non-swimmer that cannot swim but still want to swim there...hahaha.. WE MADE IT !!) The underwater world of course was much more beautiful than on the shore : ) Luckily , Dai jie got a camera that can be taken in the water, so she had helped us to capture a lot of nice photos.

The sad part is that we didnt mangae to stay in Redang itself ..so next time shall go again and stay there...when is it ? I do not know..but I only know that the next time I go , I think I will choose to take a plane than coach.

DAY 3 & 4 : :
Again most of the time spent was on the coach as we are heading to KL. In between we stopped over at Kuantan to buy some local products. Supposedly , there was only one of our friends wanted to buy salted fish ..but in the end...all of us were with a bag of local products...hehehe..no choice...sit on the coach too long..if didnt buy anything back..feel sorry for ourselves...hahahaha..

Once we reached KL, we wasted no time and go for shopping!!! The happiest stuff I bought for myself was 2 pair of slippers...cheap and good yo...hahahaha...

The stay in KL for me was always short and rushing...Hope that the next time I go KL is long enough for me to enjoy...

Overall , it was a fun trip. This trip I got to know better of the agents from other agencies. Usually in the office, hardly had a chance to speak to them , other than friends from my agency and only get to know them through their names. This time round, we had laughter and chit chat along the whole journey so I feel much more closer with them and of cos also with Nicky and Weiye.

Thank you everyone for making this trip so fun and enjoyable ! =)

Looking forward for the next trip , be it is with my own agency or with other agencies . But I do wish for one that is from our very own OWY Team as it had been long since we go for tour as a group!

KRABI shall be the next destination ! =)

Stress and Support

2010-06-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

The month of June is a month that the "lion" is chasing after me. I was very stress and I choose this path rather than give it up or the back door that I had which may be a easier path for me.Gastric pain and headache are with me almost every day. Medicine is not the weapon that I used for these two enemies. Music is my weapon that helped me to conquer them. :)

When I choose to fight the "lion", I faced lot of obstacles in my way. I do have the thought of giving up, but based on result, I do not want to give up. Over these weeks, I do appreciate one friend that always supporting me along the way when I was down. Of course, there are also a few friends along the way...

The support from them is good enough for me to hang on, hold on and fight on!!. Time is running short for me and I am still facing obstacles. I have yet to win the "lion", but I am still fighting with "it"...

Please bless me with the luck and energy to win the "lion" and create miracle for myself.

Cindy Tan, MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!

爱

2010-05-28T00:25:00.000-07:00

爱到底是什么?

有的可以为爱放弃一切. 有的不顾一切只为了得到爱。

有的可以天长地久, 有的也只是过客。

有的获得大家的祝福，有的获得大家的白眼。

何时对,何时错? 有时也说不上来。

台湾人常用劈腿来形容一脚踏两船。

你，因对方劈腿而失去你的爱,不要难过.因为这个人不值得爱!!!!

你，如果是那个劈腿的对像而得到了爱,也不要太高兴, 因为劈过一次,就有机会劈第二或更多次.

爱情很奇妙。很多人认为它可以让你幸福和快乐，同时也可以让你悲哀和心痛。
其实，真真可以让你幸福也好，快乐也好，悲哀也好，心痛也好。。。只有一个人。。。。
那就是你自己！！

没人能控制你，除非你允许他那么做。

没人可以伤害倒你，除非你允许。就因这样，有些人很快从悲哀走出来,因为她不想再允许他伤害到她自己。有时失恋的挫折让人变更成熟和勇敢。

同样的是你选择伤害別人, 没人可以逼你。

请切记，一切的一切是你自己做的选择，怨不了別人。重点是要为自己所作的一切负责。

天下无不散的宴席

2010-04-16T01:26:00.000-07:00

In life , we always heard of this Chinese saying "天下无不散的宴席".

But when it really happen to you, how would you actually feel?

Last Sunday , it was the April Tenrikyo Monthly Service. Things were as usual but when the Principal announced that there were be two sensei going back to Japan this August ( Morimoto Sensei and Kawabata Sensei), suddenly feel very sad about it. Although every year we will be expecting old sensei leaving and new sensei coming but when the date is drawing nearer, the feeling is very different.

This time round , is even more sad . :( These two sensei were close to us, especially Kawabata Sensei. He brought a lot of "pop" stuff to the events that we had traditionally. The most unforgettable event would be the year end party because we got the "Tenrikyo Got Talent 2009" !! This was the most enjoyable event we ever had and of cos there is another one.............hehehehe..Like I mentioned before, I really feel that I had choose the right timing to come back and study and Level 4, if not I would had missed out a lot of fun and laughter ! No regrets !! :)

No matter what I do wish these two sensei all the very best when they are back in Japan and continuing to bring joy and love wherever they go. At present now, we shall treasure the precious moments that we have with them before they go back to Japan.

Next event to look forward will be Hinokishin Day.

Jya mata.

Family Trip & Run Round Singapore 2010

2010-04-01T10:25:00.000-07:00

Just back from a family trip from Genting Highlands, although it wasn't the first time that we went there but it had been 2 years plus since we went out together as a family.

This trip we seem to be very busy. First time going to the Chin Swee Temple to have vegeterian food and walked round the temple...it was quite big but too bad it rained and I didn't have the chance to visit the whole temple..残念ですね。。

The most exciting part was to go to the Genting Strawberry Farm. I like strawberry a lot but I had never seen how strawberry plant looks like..seem like a "mountain tortoise" ..hahaha.. but is really a cooling place to grow the strawberry =)

Straight after I came back from Genting, I did not sleep and went straight for the Run Round Singapore 2010. This is the first time on duty for such an event. I was really impressed by those runners that they actually finished the whole 218km within 36 hrs without sleep. I was only on duty for 18 hrs..i almost maxed out...But it was really fun..if next time , there is such an event, i will go for it again...

Next to look forward will be my REDANG TRIP in JUNE ! Yeah !

14th of every month (Korea)

2010-02-11T01:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, Kawabata Sensei shared something interesting to us during the class. He was telling us about the culture in Japan during Valentines Day.

In the past, the girls were made chocolate for the guys that they were fancied for only.. But now, there is some changes, the girls will now give chocolates to almost all the guys they know...cheap and simple chocolate for male colleagues , brothers , guy friends etc.. hahaha..and for the one that they like, of cos will be either handmade or expensive and nicely wrapped chocolate.

Then on 14th of March- White Day, those guys whom did receive chocolate from the girls will need to return a gift. In the past, is only candy or marshmallow, but now there is more range like accessories, handbags etc. But i believe for the girls that they are not fancy for, should be only candy or marshmallow..and whereas for those girls that they fancy for should be more expensive gifts. Another way of expression their heart to the girl.

But The most interesting part is when he shared that in Korea, 14th of every month is special days for either those madly, deeply in love or for those poor singles...

January 14th "Diary Day"★
To symbolize the beginning of a new year, couples exchange yearly planners in which they mark their plans, anniversaries, birthdays and other important dates.

February 14th "Valentine's Day" ★★★★★
If a woman wants to confess her love for a man, or express her feelings for him, this is the day to give that special someone some chocolate. The streets of Korea begin to line itself with chocolate-filled lace baskets about a week prior to Valentine's Day. This day particularly makes a large profit in department stores, hotels, chocolate stores, bakeries, jewelry stores, and doll stores

March 14th "White Day" ★★★★★
This special day is in correspondence to Valentine's Day. On White Day, it is the men's turn to confess and express his love and affection for that special someone by giving her candies and gifts. The customary gifts on White Day are candy, not chocolate, jewelry, flowers, or dolls. Many men also highlight this day with romantic dinners and events. If one should forget this day and offer nothing to his significant other, he may not hear the end of it for a while

April 14th "Black Day" ★★★★
Black Day is a day for singles.
After the two romantic love-filled months, lonely singles surely are not in the best of moods. Therefore, Black Day is designated especially for singles. To console each other for enduring these past two months being single, people who are single will get together on this special day to eat Jjajangmyeon, black noodles.
Many people will also dress in all black, from head to toe including black accessories and black nail polish. Hence, the name "Black Day." Their sense of camaraderie will be stronger on this day as they declare "No to couples, and yes to singles!" but there are a few singles that find a suitable mate

May 14th "Rose Day" ★
On this day, couples exchange roses

June 14th "Kiss Day" ★
Kiss everyone you meet on this day

July 14th "Silver Day" ★
On this day, people exchange silver accessories

August 14th "Green Day" ★
On this day, couples seek nature and relax while singles drink Soju to drown their loneliness

September 14th "Photo Day" ★
On this day, take a picture together with your significant other in a romantic place and put it in a special place to look at.

October 14th "Wine Day" ★
On this day, enjoy wine with someone special.

November 14th "Movie Day" ★
On this day, couples go to watch a movie at the cinema.

December 14th "Hug Day" ★
On this day, couples hug each other in the winter to chase away the cold

Personally, I do like the HUG DAY cos Dec is winter ..cold cold and with the hug of ur lover , it will sure warm you up..hehehe..but now ..no lover so i think i need to hug all my teddy bears..........

Happy Chinese New Year!

2010-02-11T00:31:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year is coming....

This year don't know why I do feel stress in my work ..I started to care about whether do I have sales or not..unlike the past, during this period of time , I just relax one concern. I really believe that this is a lucrative business to be in but how come I always seem to stuck in the rat race..( what am i pretending not to know) hehehe..

neverthless this year there is a lot of external pressure...everyone is stressing one another...maybe is a good motivation afterall..

Tiger year coming , of cos there is new goal for myself too. Whatever it is, I just want to be different this year. This year got too many wish list to fulfill....before my wish list can be fulfill..there is one more important thing I need to do 1st.....Ganbatte !!!

Top 10
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1) Laptop
2) Japanese Electronic Dictionary
3) Handphone
4) White Frame sunglass
5) Yukata
6) Japan trip
7) Tote bag
8) Accessories
9) Change my whole wardrode clothing
10) Facial package

Earn lots of money then to fulfill everything !!!!!

小顔リンパマッサージ

2010-01-03T03:45:00.000-08:00

Authentic 2010

2010-01-01T22:05:00.000-08:00

１月１日　2010　金曜日

今日はとても楽しかったですね。はじめで甘いお酒を飲んたや、もちを作った。
Drinking sweet sake is for the blessing of sweet year ahead. Lunch was served with some of the authentic Japanese food. おいしいですね！
Pounding of mochi was so fun but was tiring...need a lot of strength. The mochi just taste so nice..don't know is it involve in the pounding and rolling or is it because of 川端先生の汗。。hahaha...

After the party , I went to meet up with Nicky and Judy for some authentic India food. The restaurant was clean with nice ambiance. We had lot of laughter there. A lot of "authentic" conversation too..We brought our "country pumpkin" -Mr Nicky Goh to Mustafa Centre to shop too..

We went to Harry's pub ( which I don't fancy at all ) for a chill out drink after the dinner. Tim joined us for the drink too. We chatted, laughed and made fun of one another. Great time !

The night was ended with our dear "country pumpkin" took the wrong bus. It was so funny that I can't stop laughing. He wanted to take N3 home but when he saw NR 3 , he just simply and happily hoped onto it. I didn't realized was the wrong bus until Tim said out that it was different. Luckily we managed to ask him to get down on time and changed to another bus number. But because of this , we also learned that N3 is by SBS and NR 3 is by Transit co and they go different places. So next time when you want to take night rider home, please open up your eyes big and don't just hope to the bus because of the number, the alphabet "N" and "NR" ( the difference of the "R") makes a difference!

Tenrikyo Got Talent 2009 - Singapore

2009-12-27T21:32:00.000-08:00

25th Dec 2009 - Christmas Day

Finally was the day for the year-end party by Tenrikyo Misssion Centre ( Singapore). Every year, they do have year -end party on 25 th Dec, but this year was a bit different. They had a special program called "Tenrikyo Got Talent". This program was suggested by the GTK( Great Teacher Kawabata) aka Kawabata Sensei aka Pop Star Kawabata..but now had promoted to Super Star Kawabata!!

We had 10 groups of people joining this event. Some of them sang japanese songs, some of them danced and for me I was the balloon princess..hahahah...I was doing the balloon sculpturing. I must thank Jessie chan for helping me to put on the make-up. It was hard on her cos my eyes were quite challenging for her. :P

The practise was hard as the balloon kept bursting and also the fingers can be quite painful after the whole day of practising. Nevertheless, the effort was being paid off when I saw the smiles of the people when they looked at my kawaii balloons..

This TGT had attracted 130 people attending the year-end party at Watten Estate!!! We rocks !!!!

This was a good memory for all the audiences, the performancers and also for our 3 dear Japanese sensei tachi. This made their 2 years stay in Singapore an unforgettable event when they go back to Japan. Will miss them a lot when they go back to Japan . Next event to look forward is the Children party on New Year Day. Sweet sake is to be drank on that day for good blessing for the new year 2010 ahead!

Christmas 2009

2009-12-17T08:11:00.000-08:00

8 more days to christmas day and also to our very first "Tenrikyo Got Talent 2009 - Singapore".

Christmas to me is like a romantic holiday.
My dream is to have a White Christmas with my 恋人..but when will this dream be fulfilled???? I also dont know..hope that I won't need to wait too long..hehehe...

Although there is no 恋人 this year...but I have my "Tenrikyo Got Talent 2009 - Singapore". Something that I am looking forward to it ...should have a lot of fun and laughter. I feel that one of the happiest thing for me in year 2009 was to go back to study my Japanese. As I went back, I knew new friends and of course I got a wonderful and funny Japanese teacher who always will praised him everywhere , anywhere and anytime..hahahaha..

Wish List
1. White frame sunglasses
2. Japanese - English electronic dictionary
3. New handphone
4.Tall , rich and handsome bf..hahahaha...
5. and many more...........................

Counting down to Christams then...

8 DAYS.............................
7 DAYS............................
6 DAYS............................
5 DAYS............................
4 DAYS...........................
3 DAYS...........................
2 DAYS...........................
1 DAY..............MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!　

Happening week.

2009-11-15T08:53:00.000-08:00

The week was filled of laughter and fun with the celebrating of our Japanese November Babies - 森本先生　と　川端先生.

They had a lot of cake for the whole week...maybe it was the first experience of having the most cake eaten ever in the whole week..hahaha.. but this also showed their popularity among the students.

Of course, as usually I made two lovely cards for these two lovely 先生。Spent quite some time choosing the individual present for them as it wasn't an easy task, especially for 川端先生. I knew he likes to perform magic so went to do some research over the net and also went to The Magic Hall and stared for almost 2 hrs plus before deciding on which magic tool to buy for him. Finally bought him something "WOW" and hope he can be able to master the magic.

As for 森本先生, went around shopping here n there and finally found one very lovely necklace that she can used it for accessories.

Everything was worth when I saw the smiles on them when they received the cards and the presents. We had great time at the Hong Kong Cafe at Marina Square on thur ( 12th November ) which was the exact day of 川端先生 birthday. Followed by a BBQ on the sat to celebrate again for 川端先生 and also for 森本先生 as her birthday was on the 15th November.

Although I lost the opportunity of staffing which some of you know what it means , but I found another door of happiness which I never thought that it could be so fun. So when a door closed in your life, there will sure be another one for you to open but is just whether you want to take the risk to open and see what is there for you.

On sunday, I also met up with some of my LP 79 friends. Seeing them made me feel so happy. Met up with Pin and Verdy for a ice cream session at Bugis first before going for the porridge buffet. The ice cream wasn't that nice :( . Next met up with Rebecca, Ivan, Fiona and Bryan for the porridge buffet, also not nice..that made me even more sad :( :(
Apart from all the "not nice" food, I enjoyed myself with them. It had been quite some time I had last seen them.

I had a fulfilling week by enjoying with the people around me, appreciating the friendship that had been built, building new friendship around me etc..

ok..time for some beauty sleep and go to work tomorrow...

HTC Tattoo

2009-11-09T06:22:00.000-08:00

Thinking of getting myself a new hand phone as my Nokia hand phone is not functioning that well ...old already...but still usable =)

Was browsing through the Internet and see what new hand phones are up in the market and came across "HTC Tattoo". From there, found out that it uses Android platform which happens to be quite an IN THING now which I don't seem to have any clue on it at all !!!!

Still considering whether is it worth for me to get one or not although it is not that expensive considering it is a PDA phone.. but I do not wish to get a hand phone and end up I only call or sms ..just because I do not know how to use the phone function and the money is paid for. Sound stupid isn't it??? ( although I do admit that I am quite an IT-idiot..hahaha )

HTC Tattoo かどうか、わかりません。

Morning Madness

2009-10-16T04:35:00.000-07:00

RRing........5 am in the morning , my alarm clock rang...It was time for me to wake up.
I had promised Nicky to do prospecting with him at 6.30am at Joo Keng which in my life of my career, I had never do this before.

To my surprised that the MRT at 6am was almost full. People had started working at this hour whereas a lot of us were still sleeping ( I am one of them lor :P) We didn't get any leads but we wont give up so easily. We will continuing doing it.

Afternoon, went for my haircut and were discussing about insurance with my hairstylist. He was my new hairstylist anyway. During the conversation then I realized that he got a premium of $1600 per mth for his insurance coverage. He was a true believer of insurance. Not only that, he is a freelance hairstylist. For every haircut he do , he only charged $10. Yet he can pay the premium every mth and also give himself a good life.

I started to do a reflection on myself .
"Hello Cindy Tan , what are you doing and what do you want. People out there earning $10 per haircut can make it. What about you? What it takes from you to make it happen for yourself ?

"Sow a thought and you reap an action; sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny." Emerson, Ralph Waldo

sleepless nights....

2009-10-05T03:12:00.000-07:00

I had not been sleeping well since last week...almost only able to fall asleep about 4-5am...too stress ?? I also don't know...

Yesterday I only slept for two hours...but I wasn't feeling tired at all...Is this normal? or I am once again get into my insomia.

Last quarter of the year is here and things have and need to be done. For the past 3 quarters , I am in a confusion state..but it doesnt seem any better now anyway :(

But last Friday, I was happy for Verdy because his company We! Interactive had officially opened. Though office space was not up to his expectation but like what he said is not how big or nice the office is, but how much can he make out of it.
So Verdy, 頑張ってください.

I think I need to sleep to think well.....zzzZZZZ

5 days

2009-09-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

hmm......
Went to see doctor after on n off of suffering of sore throat, blocked nose and fever etc for a week or so....
Who knows I need to go through one blood test and one more test ( test for H1N1, which the doctor had inserted a fine tube into your nose for a few seconds...not painful , but uncomfortable ) This test will be sent to MOH, so if i that "heng" and received call from MOH then i need to stay at home even longer. PLEASE DON'T!!

Blood test result showed that my white blood cells were lower than normal, which means that I already have another bacteria infection on top of being suspected of H1N1. haiz.... :(

Doctor had given me 5 days of mc to ask me to rest at home. Let me think when was the last time I was given 5 days mc? hmm..that should be 7 or 8 years ago when I was having my wisdom tooth operation...hahaha..

So these few days , I would be staying at home...drinking lot of water and rest well.......... this is how i spend my long weekend :'(

Unexpected Call

2009-09-10T07:22:00.000-07:00

Today I received an unexpected call which made me feel surprised and touched.
This call was from Dennis ( Weiye's manager). He called and told me that he felt heartache for me to leave the agency. He wanted to talk to me. Unexpectedly, I agreeded to meet him. Immediately when I put down the phone, I cried. This time round, I did not suppress my sadness. :..(

All the while, I can't bear to leave OWY agency. I really love this agency including my manager although at times I feel like boxing him..hahaha...but he do teach me a lot of stuff be it is good or bad stuff.

Today, I realised that I am always the one giving up myself in one way or another...

Where is my 100% to myself , to my work, to my life??

OWY agency never give up on me from the first day I become one of them..

I cried for almost half an hr..all my current bosses and friends came over to me and asked me what happen. I don't know how to tell them..

Once again, I feel for my agency ...

What is my final decision now, I also don't know..........

Human

2009-09-02T22:44:00.000-07:00

人之初，性本善？

These few days i really wonder this sentence leh..are we born with kindness?
A lot of things happen around me..i really see the ugly side of a man. When a man lost his sense, he really can forget all the love and concern given to him over the years. Why do people just don't treasure the ones beside them and always looking for fun outside. Is it really true that the grass over the other side is always greener? If more n more this type of man exist in this world, i really do not know how to world is going to be...it seem so sad.

Of cos on the other side of the coin, i saw the strong friendship happening around me too.

Gal, a message to you :
don't worry. No matter what happen, you also have nice n supportive friends around you. From what I know at least got 3 lah..you should know who the 3 of them is. Be strong and move on =)

梁靜茹 - 沒有如果

2009-08-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

心愿便利貼

2009-08-23T04:54:00.000-07:00

WHat is love?

2009-08-11T06:38:00.001-07:00

When you are his main course , he can do anything and everything for you.
When you become his dessert, he can still try to have it.
When you are not his main course nor dessert, he deemed as he never had it before.

Is this what you called LOVE?

Marriage is not a certificate that you can just take it and forget it.
Be responsible!!!

Gal, be strong. Love yourself =)

Bleeding Love

2009-07-29T06:48:00.000-07:00

Where am I now?

2009-07-27T20:02:00.000-07:00

A old man came saw 3 men working and they were all doing the same work which was laying bricks.

The old man went up to the 1st guy and ask him : "Sir , what are you doing?" The 1st guy replied : " Can't you see , I am laying bricks."

The old man went up to the 2nd guy and ask him the same question : " Sir , what are you doing ?" The 2nd guy replied :" I am building a wall."

Once again, the old man went up to the 3rd guy : " Sir, what are you doing ?" The 3rd guy replied : " I am building a church."

Everyone might be doing the same work in and out everyday but the vision behind each individual will dictate ones action and push him forward everyday.

For the 1st guy, he just lay his bricks, the 2nd guy aimed to build a wall and the 3rd guy wanted to build a church at the end of the day. 3 guys doing the same stuff but the answers given by them were all different. The difference was the Vision that they had at the back of their mind. Who would not give up if meet difficulties while laying the bricks? You and I know the answer very well...Is the 3rd guy.

The reason for that not only he can see where he is going but he also knew where he is now . He can only build his church by laying his bricks first...step by step to build his dream church.

We always see only our end destination. But question is where are we now ? If we don't even know where are we now, how are we going to head ourselves towards the end destination even if we have the map and compass.

What you can do in 5 mins?

2009-07-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

SHAPE run 09.

2009-07-19T04:37:00.000-07:00

19th of July was here...It was SHAPE run 2009.

Woke up at 6am to get ready for the run. Reached Millenia Walk at about 6.30am by cab..too lazy to take bus cos I was still in my dreamland..lol

This was the first time I had took the initiative to sign up for some running thingy and was the furthest distance I had ever run. I must be crazy to sign up as I hate running since young..hahaha..but don't know why I had actually sign up and get my LP 79 friends to run with me too. CRAZY liao....

I did not train at all for this run...Too tired and lazy to train :P
Therefore was a bit worried I could not complete the run.So when I was at the starting point I told myself my goal for today's race was to complete it. Once it flagged off at around 7.45am, I just kept running in my comfort pace so that I could maintained it for the 5km. The weather was nice and with some music, it somehow do keep me running on..

My handphone was a MP3 for me..I had selected some songs for the run...initially was playing some slow songs, then I found that it was not tat motivating ..so decide to change to some fast songs...At the end, I had chosen "Hot N Cold" by Katy Perry and this one and only song had accompany me at least for 3km :)

During half way, I had blister and somehow do feel like giving up and walked back, then I told myself that never mind..I should not give up so fast and just kept running...I did walk here and there but at the end I had managed to finish running within 45mins. YEAH!!!!

The willingness to do running was supposed had built up during my LP 79 journey. I had a bitchy buddy . VERDY YONG , who kept asking me to run even at midnight lor...my 1st 5km was "trained" by him too...hahaha...I would never forget it as it was a torture at that time...lol.

I was happy and proud of myself that I could complete the run and the best part it was within the timing I had set for myself. I must praise myself for that.

WELL DONE CINDY ! =)

The Imperfect

2009-07-09T08:47:00.001-07:00

Today was finally our LP 79 gathering. At 4.40pm, got a call from the printer saying that there was some cock up with our books that we supposed to give it for our LP 79. I was devastated. My gathering would be starting at 7.30pm and now is what 4.40pm, how am I going to handle this situation? Haiz...... I was given the choice to make a stand. The books were delivered at last..but imperfect :(

The previous day was the same situation too..The CD casing was not what we wanted. Luckily, we still managed to solve it after all..the end product is quite nice too...but still another imperfect :(

Despite of all the imperfect stuff we had, we still managed to make it happen.

I was shocked to see Weiye ( my enroller ) to be here, cos I didn't receive his reply after I sent out my invitation to him..He really ah...still complain to my buddy about me...of cos , he was being given one of our LP 79 book.

This gathering to some of us was like pregnancy. We had miscarriages in between but heng..no abortion..hahaha..At the end, the babies ( LP 79 book & CD) were out with some imperfection but still..we always love our babies no matter how imperfect they were :)

My weekend

2009-07-04T10:05:00.000-07:00

Guess what ? I am now at my friend's house surfing the net and writing this blog. What are they doing leh? They were playing mahjong as usual since afternoon. I should really said that mahjong is no longer their hobby but really is their passion. They built up the relationship through mahjong, laughed together and make fun of one another. They are really a bunch of funny guys.

If there is really a mahjong marathon, I will nominate two of the power kids to go. They are James and Patrick. They can really play throughout and without the shag face...hahahah..if they put in this effort in work, they will be high flyer wor..James and Patrick, pls put your mahjong passion into your work too and you can become high flyer too ! Gambatte ne!

Finally, most of the LP thingys had been settled. Now is to wait for Thursday to come and I should be able to see my LP 79 friends. Pls pray hard for me that the gathering is successful. A few people effort are in there , trying to make it a success. Really looking forward to Thur as this is the 1st gathering ever since we graduated. I really need to appreciate Anson for his effort as I had been rushing him in and out to make certain things happen to me.

What am i avoiding?

2009-07-01T07:22:00.007-07:00

A few things had changed and happend over the weeks..new friends , new life, new "mahjong breakthrough" for me...hahahaa..15 hrs ya..shag but fun cos I got to know a bunch of crazy guys and I also don't know why they like to make fun of me while playing mahjong.. Whatever I said , they will laughed at it..Hello, I am not a joker leh :P

I enjoyed being with them..

I am not avoiding certain people or certain thing..just that I don't feel the openess .. I understand everyone got their own life, maybe the culture was not not there first place. But nevertheless...I still love them as they taught me a lot of things..we are better off being friends as we only know how to play hard together.

Walking in the rain

2009-06-24T04:48:00.001-07:00

Dark clouds, drizzling & cool wind...WOW! what a nice weather to be lying on my bed and be in my dreamland. Sad to say, this is not the case for today. I had been walking in the rain for a few hrs with a hardworking guy. He was really an inspiration of 100% is possible , 100% all the time. I think if is last time, I would have give up and go back to my lovely bed. But still, I need to take care of my health if not wait sick liao, nobody cares :"(

I had been shifting my being and remind myself on my being. When being is correct, things fall in place nicely. Well..at times is really difficult and let loose a bit lah but hello, I am still a human being, not a robot that can be programmed and delete my feelings anytime, anywhere.

Suddenly missed my crazy LP days. Those were the 3 months that can never be forgotten..

LP 79 frens, I miss and love you all =)
Never mind, I should be able to see most of u all, as we are going to have our 1st gathering ( *crossing fingers now*) although a lot of things seem not yet finalize :P

WELL, MAKE IT HAPPEN then !!! hahaha..

HOT ! HOT ! HOT!

2009-06-23T09:46:00.000-07:00

I am not referring to myself..but refer to the weather in Singapore...IS REALLY DAMN HOT !!!! We really need to do something for the global warming issue..if not I really can't image how the future generation can survived with the hot weather which I suppose it will get worsen in years to come... Pls people, save the Earth ...

I think I need to carry my that CMI ( Cannot-Make-It) Winnie the Pooh fan out again...but I am resisting myself to do that in order not to spoil my image :P

Hey Mr Buddy, where is my CMI ( Can -Make -It) fan as promised. I do really need it now.

Happiness

2009-06-16T08:42:00.000-07:00

Someone told me this quote today.

"Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without actions."
Benjamin Disraeli

I feel that this sentence is very true especially in love relationships.

At times, You feel for somebody and express to him/her, but you are not the person for that somebody. You feel dejected and sad, then you decided to give up and not to take any risk anymore.
At times, when you feel for the person, but you scare to be rejected and get hurt, so keep mute and do nothing about it, you might just miss the chance and it is gone forever.

Both cases here are negative results, but coins have both sides. The other is the positive results and you will be surrounded with love. But the very 1st step is to take actions..as there is no action, there is ZERO result.

For those who are now in the love boat, treasure the time and the one beside you.
For those who are still finding the one to be in the love boat, be brave and take the risk.

iPhone, iWood ..now is iNO

2009-06-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

Not iPhone, not iWood , is iNo!!!!

Must all phone models come with the 'i' then consider trendy ??

This iNo is not for me, is for the elderly and children.

There is a special SOS button on the back of the handset so that if an elderly person gets into trouble, pressing the single button will send emergency calls and text messages to four pre-programmed numbers. And when the button is released, the phone will also sound a siren to attract the attention of passers-by. Cool right ?

The outlook look like my calculator..hahaha..

No 3G, no camera etc ..i thought of the 1st generation 大哥大, but of cos, this iNO looks more stylish in a way. The 1st generation 大哥大 can used to eat crab wor..big n sturdy..hahaha..

Is quite cheap too..well..can consider to buy for your elderly in your family. :P

Time for training ....

2009-06-08T08:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , AW celebrated her 10th Anniversary in Singapore. The Creation Team had actually came up an idea to have a Torch Pass round Singapore from LP Legacy to LP 81. Each LP would have to run 1 km and that total up to 82km round Singapore. Of course , as an GLP, the Creation Team won't let us off that easy..Each km was to be completed in 5mins. Based on results, it worked!

My LP 79 would have to run and that was for sure. Some of us had to start running for LP 27, 28 & 29. The interesting part was it started to rain heavily when we reached Lavender MRT. :(

WE STILL RUN!! 1st time ran in the rain..Real wet but also Real fun!!!!

Waiting for the time to pass until our LP 79 to run, our start point at Takashimaya..and ending point we pledged to run till Crescent Girls. ( which I don't know where the hell is Crescent Girls lor..) With Ad's encouragement , I finally completed and reached Crescent Girls safely and in one piece...also 1st time running along Orchard Area..

Is time to train for my SHAPE run , if not I think I will have hard time for the SHAPE run and might need to be crutches after my run...hahaha..

Mid point check

2009-06-01T21:48:00.000-07:00

Is already June 2009 and is time for mid-point for the year.
I must admitted that a lot of things are not being done for the 1st half of the year. Being through a few low moments , just tat the difference now , I am able to shift faster and make a stand for myself.

When I took the courage to face up and made a choice, I felt happy and light. I realised slowly the rest of the area of my life would be in place automatically.

Life is just like a domino effect. When one area fall, the rest will fall and at times we never realise how big the impact can be. As long as we never give up , we still can salvage our life and form a wonderful picture. We only live once after all.

A few things will be expected for the next half year. I am excited about it and I am going to live my life and create love and fun around me.

I need a real man

2009-05-19T05:26:00.001-07:00

This is what i need.
A real man for me and not a boyfriend

我真的搞不太懂你怎么会选择寂寞
要的通通都有就少了那一个男朋友
你还要ㄍ一ㄥ多久你到底挑什么
听比说的多不怕我啰嗦
知道我难过陪着我沉默
手机桌布只有我很多甜蜜小动作
自己吃饭没胃口刷卡之前先问我
喜欢我朋友也会爱我的狗
懂环保爱地球保护我像英雄
总是大方介绍我什么节日都记得
陪我减肥吃苹果帮我买口红
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
何时出现何时出现何时出现何时出现
会玩会工作会疯会生活
会下厨会运动会爱会作梦
又像男孩又成熟对我大方自己抠
教我绝招打电动什么都有我
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
(Rap)
I Be Your Real Man
可会出现可会出现可会出现可会出现
我现在有一点通该怎么解决你寂寞
你说了两三分钟我愿意花两三年去做
既然你ㄍ一ㄥ很久要不要等等我
大丈夫耍酷耍温柔肩膀什么都扛得动
我嘴唇轻轻动一动就知道我在想什么
Just Show Me One Real Man
(就让我看到一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
十项全男 Real Man
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
I Dont Wan A Boyfriend(我不需要男朋友)
I Need A Real Man(我只需要一个有肩膀的大丈夫)
Real Man Real Man Real Man Real Man
(Rap)
Yeah A-ha I Need A Real Man
Im Same Like This Girl

Double Faced

2009-05-19T05:03:00.000-07:00

When I was with my image, people mistaken me.
When I let go of my image, people also mistaken me. WTF!!!

You can say that I am being a victim or whatever but hello, ain't you become a victim too ???

Whatever it is, I shall be ME and do it in my way...

I am not going to change my stand as I know I am being honest with everything as told!!!!!

Thoughts

2009-05-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

Hmm..saw a few interesting stuff yesterday

Went to John Little , as Tim wanted to buy some brief ya...went to see a few brands and realised that one of the brand they actually have this "anti-bacteria" for their briefs. I really wonder how this "anti-bacteria" works? Wear already, u will be bacteria-free ??hahaha..

Out of curiosity, I wonder if we, ladies, have this privilege of having "anti-bacteria" undergarments too, so we went over the the ladies section. YES!! We do have too. It is made of bamboo, Eco-friendly and anti-bacteria too.

Question: By cutting down more bamboo and make into garments , does this consider "Eco-Friendly"?

There is this shop in Marina Square that I love to go in and take a look. It sells very interesting stuff from time to time. Saw this thingy which i thought is some kind of cups initially and it also looks like some hair care tube too. When take a closer look and after some explanation from the sales personnel then realise is male adult toys. These products are from Japan. Quite a few choices for guys to choose from..It is very innovative and Japanese are real smart people.

Guys, if you need them, go to the link below and check it out.
http://www.tengatango.com/

Finally in the evening ,met up with Verdy for dinner and went to watch "Angels & Demons". This is the novel written by Dan Brown.
It was a nice movie but pls Verdy, next time don't choose to sit the first two rows..i will feel giddy :S
After the movie, we were chatting on how religion play a part in our lifestyle nowadays and how it had affected to some of the people around us?
Have you ever wonder how you get in contact with your religion , you choose it or you just follow your parents ? well..you own your life afterall...

Live in passion

2009-05-13T02:15:00.000-07:00

Was watching a TV program last night featuring some of the artist in Singapore. From there realised when they had just started their business, they had no design background at all. They just have the passion in them and take the risk and go for it.

I had been all the while in love with designing, drawing..but had too much considerations and not living in my life. Just be a victim and envy others who are in the design field...

1st time using Adobe Illustrator to draw..Simple drawing but is using the heart to draw..More room for improvement :)

I named this artwork "In Love With you"

Acknowledgement to my Daddy and Mummy

2009-05-08T10:53:00.000-07:00

There is this PVC 2 Photo acknowledgement thingy going on..It is to acknowledge people around you..We acknowledge every single friends around us, but we always failed or forget to acknowledge the ones that brought us to this wonderful world and that is our parents.

I was sobbing while writing the acknowledgement to them. I had never acknowledge them before..this is my 1st time..I don't think that words can describe my feeling for them right now...I just want to tell them..

I LOVE YOU , PAPA and MUMMY!

6048001250

2009-05-05T23:55:00.000-07:00

Last week was a torture to me somehow or rather...but whatever it is , I need to let it go, move on and carry on..anyway the "someone" finally willing to talk to me already :S

I do have a whole bunch of bitchy friends around me but seriously I do enjoy being a bitch! hahaha...

I was being told with a few statistics on what is happening around me.

1. For every sec, there is a child die of starvation on Earth. So while we are wasting our time don't know what to do, bitching around, writing this blog,doing our work etc.. some poor child in the other part of the world is fighting for his/her survival. For a week 604,800 lives are to be taken away.

2. For every 1 GLP being light up, he/she is able to light up another 250 lives around him/her. So whenever GLP is down or back to automatic self and not being himself/herself, we are affecting 250 lives direct & indirectly.

Nothing in your life happen without a reason. I had sorted out my thoughts for the past few days and get myself move on. What I always neglected is my INTENTION as I always focused on the mechanics but if intention is not cleared all results failed no matter what mechanics is being used !!

TIME TO BE A BITCH!!!

The Mystic Force Story

2009-05-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

Legend says when the Darkness arises, fire brave teen Sorcerers will be called to fight for the planet's survival.

With guidance from their wise mentor and the ancient Xenetome, Book of the Unknown, they will embark on magical adventures, befriend mystical dragons, battle dangerous beasts, encounter pure evil....

and transfom into the Power Rangers Mystic Force.

I wana be a polar bear

2009-04-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

This is a misheard lyric from the 1978 Eurovision song contest. It just cheers me up for the day. Enjoy!

Anasethic Cure

2009-04-29T21:24:00.000-07:00

I feel like injecting anasethic to my heart and let it feel numb....since I can't let my feeling through me and it is torturing me for a few days. I am suppressing a lot of feeling to be cool, to be strong, to be fine to others. How long can I hold on to this feelings? I am now simply just a zombie communicating to the world outside me..

Awesome !

2009-04-27T06:17:00.000-07:00

This is damn cool !!1 Check it out =)

No more Number 1

2009-04-19T22:45:00.000-07:00

Number 1 had always been a good number to everyone. Number 1 in this , Number 1 in that etc.. But number 1 to me had another meaning too..

I had been voting myself a "1" and that is why my life is not working. How long am I going to hold on this voting and doing pain to myself and others?
Ms Nerdy gal is wasting the resources, the oxygen, the space, the love, the Mother Nature to survive in this planet called Earth.

Be present and Say Goodbye to Ms Nerdy gal.

Make it happen ! Remember the distinctions !

Taking for Granted

2009-04-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

I was angry!!
Based on result, it made me feel that I was taken for granted. :(
I was contemplating to answer your call as I was still boiling with anger, but chance need to be given for your explanation.

Since you sincerely apologised, I accepted it. :)
Although it was a small matter but the choice you made would affect on others. This applies to all your choice that you are going to make in your life!

Time to stop, step left, choose and vote ! =)
Jia You !

Feelings

2009-04-15T02:28:00.001-07:00

Flu bugs had been bugging me and yet to have any sign of leaving me :(

Over the few days, had been trying to install some programs but FAILED!
Chatting with one of my poly mate over the msn at one of late nights, realised that I had wasted my 3 years in the poly studying stuff that I am not into at all...haiz... I studied the course b'cos of what my parents wanted me to do for the future..now I realised is not working for me ...but time can never be reversed. So Let's forget the past and move on..What is next for me?

Learn my stuff and move on. Nothing is impossible and is a matter of choice and be committed to what I want for myself. Is my life and I need to own it! =)

Jeff Buckley-Hallelujah

2009-04-12T08:40:00.000-07:00

It reminds me of my Advance Course in AsiaWorks =)

Down with Flu

2009-04-12T08:03:00.000-07:00

Haiz...attacked by the flu virus...nowadays the flu virus are getting stronger and I am getting weaker...being tortured by it for the past few days :(

Saturday morning suppose to have a Single Mingle, but I can't woke up and also my special "morning call @ 8am" failed as he called me like what 12.30pm. Well done ! That was his @8am morning call :(

But still I pulled myself up and get dressed to meet my LP 79 friends at the KTV in the afternoon because our dear Gene is getting into the army on Wed. He wanted to have some fun ,so even though I was ill, I will still go down and had fun with him. Having flu and having fun at the same time are tough job!!!

Didn't have a nice dinner with my friends as I got porridge at home and They had nice Japanese food :..(
I still enjoyed the dinner time with them as we had our "LAME JOKES" session...hahaha...Is really super lame...We shall have more lame jokes next time.

Welcome Home Buddy

2009-04-08T09:39:00.000-07:00

8th of April , my buddy, Verdy was back from Taiwan from 3 weeks of training. Wanted to surprise him with a present that Fiona and I choose for him, so I sms him to check what time he reach S'pore. He only said around 1am ..As it was a surprise so did not ask him much to arouse his suspicious :x

Went to check on the flight schedule in the afternoon but can't find any flight that would reach S'pore around 1am. So sms Chris, as he would be picking up Verdy. I was told that Verdy would be taking SQ . Check the flight schdule again in the evening and realised that if Verdy is going to take SQ flight, then he would reach s'pore at 11pm lor...Verdy won't be so blur about his own timing of flight right...so check on all airlines flying back to S'pore and the 8th of April again and finally saw that EVA AIRLINE from Taipei to S'pore arrived at 12.40am. Only update about 5 hrs before reaching S'pore...It was that effective...

Since flight schedule was confirmed, I met up with Pin to go airport. We reached there around 8pm and had dinner over there. We brought all my paper stuffs to do some hand-made cards that we intended to give it to our LP 79 April babies...I managed to finish about 2 cards before Verdy's flight reached S'pore.

12.30am, we stopped our work and get ready to surprise Verdy. Around 1am, I recognised that was Verdy's luggage bag as he bought it at the very last min together with 5 girls before he left was already on the belt. His luggage bag was the first few that we saw, but he was not the first few that came out of the belt. It took him about 45 mins to get all his luggage before he see us...It was that effective again....

This was the first time i picked people up from the airport...usually i just send off... It was tiring as the flight was around 1am, but it was fun..see the smile and happiness of my buddy, I know is worth picking him up..

Welcome home buddy =)

Am I a Perfectionist too?

2009-03-31T02:21:00.000-07:00

Things are not moving in the smooth way as it seem to be...

Got rejected...but knowing deep inside...it is a rejected piece of work...

Why am i upset about it? I take it personally or am I a perfectionist in certain way too?

I dont know...but based on result : Mission Failed !! :(

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-29T19:47:00.000-07:00

Earth Hour : 28th March 2009 , Sat @ 2030( Singapore Time )

Did you know about the Earth Hour? or you didnt even bother or know about this thingy....
Earth Hour is a campaign to highlight climate change & global warming.

Time zone by time zone, nearly 4,000 cities and towns in 88 countries joined the event sponsored by the World Wildlife Fund to dim nonessential lights from 8:30 p.m. to 9:30 p.m. The campaign began in Australia in 2007 and last year grew to 400 cities worldwide.

Singapore do take part in the Earth hour but Only some 8,000 individuals took part and the number short fall of the target of 1 million. :( Hmm..a lot of work need to be done for raising the awarness on the effect of global warming ya...

Every little effort and things you do will have an effect on the Earth.
Love the mother nature and she will love you too. Be kind and protect her.

Save the world !

Victim or Responsible

2009-03-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

At home, the whole day doing some stuff...

At 5.30pm, received a call from Elaine asking who made the video for our LP 79 WOW day as it can't be played for the guest event ..so need to handle it.

So called up and checked then realised they wanted to play through DVD player but our video format is wma. format ya...if can't handle in time, we can have our video still played at the guest event but is for tomorrow only..so I can either choose to ignore and hack care as I am not really that IT savvy lor... or choose to handle it!!!

Well, since I love my LP 79 so much, I choose to handle and called up my dear Ah wei and asked her how to go about doing that...she told me steps by steps and get the DVD out at 5.50pm. Challenge is to reach at AW by 6.30pm...Guess what , I reached at 6.20pm..Yeah!

I feel like crying when the DVD is being play...To me , even if nobody wants to watch the video, is ok to me...because based on results, my intention is to get the DVD out on time and making the impossible to be possible =)

At least now I learned how to convert a wma. file to a DVD ...Coolz!

Congratulations!

2009-03-22T11:07:00.000-07:00

Today was Basic Graduation Day, of cos this was nothing new to me..but today was different as my cousin, Kenneth, was one of the Graduate. It was really a touching moments when I stood in front of him to wait for him to open his eyes...

If wasn't that, I made a stand to talk about this course to him, today he would not be there..and I would have taken a chance away from him to let him discover his possibilities, his life....

If wasn't that, Verdy and Ken made me realise the importance of enrollment, today I will still be playing a number game...

I had taken a risk. I had made a stand. I had touched lives. I had made it happen! :)

Once again, Congratulations to all the Graduates from Basic Training, Is your Life and Own It!

Superman Verdy Yong

2009-03-15T13:06:00.000-07:00

Verdy, This is your song.
It is hard for you but I know you are strong and powerful to be yourself in the way you want to.
You are the proudest buddy I ever have ! I will always be there for you ! This is the commitment I give it to you ya..
100% possible 100% all the time !

Soar High !!

Love shows the Way

2009-03-15T13:05:00.001-07:00

This song is special to me now. It is impactful to me in the way it should. OPen and feel for it. Go Cindy Tan! :)

Power of Dreams - LP 79

2009-03-12T02:29:00.001-07:00

This song reminds me of my LP 79 journey and it is ending soon...
Fight on LP 79!!! Yeah!
"Winners Creating Winners. Living in Excellence and Love!"

Happy Birthday Cindy

2009-03-07T11:31:00.000-08:00

Year 2009 birthday was really an unforgettable one...Is a meaningful and filled with a lot of feelings...

Saturday night , had our Vertical Marathon @ Mount Faber..When the clock striked 12am which was my birthday, some of my LP 79 course mates and my buddy celebrated with me at the peak of Mount Faber. Nice view and nice people around me..I felt very touched and happy :)

Sunday, actual day of my birthday, spent the morning and afternoon at home and rest....Late afternoon, went to AW for a briefing for the last blast of fire that we should have for my last week of LP 79 journey...attended LP 81 rally..then to Wei Jie's baby girl 1st mth shower...after that went for my SGM...

This is one of the best SGM I had since the start of LP 79 journey...I did something that in my life I never do before..all I want to say from my bottom of my heart is "Thank you Buddy"

I really love the people in LP 79. Thank you for the wonderful birthday that you all gave me! =)

Impactful Sunday

2009-03-01T07:46:00.000-08:00

6.30am, my alarm rang...ARGH!!!! I need to wake up for my SGM!!! :(

I only managed to sleep for a few hrs....dragged myself up and get ready to go for my SGM at Cityhall at 8am on a Sunday morning...

We were then brought to the Civilian War Memorial to do self reflection. We had some quiet moments for ourselves. Each individual of us having different experience for the reflection. As for me, this was really the 1st time I sat at the park and observe the surrounding. The park was quiet and peaceful while the surrounding was buzzing. Cityhall, Suntec City building, buses , cars , people rushing and walking .....

This reminds me of my life..no matter how quiet and peaceful,angry, sad, shut off etc that I choose to be, the world around me lives on..They won't stop because of me. I can have my quiet moment, but I need to pull myself up fast because once the second hand tick, the previous second was history and never be able to retrieve back. How you want people to remember you , is how you use your every second in your life to create a difference in them and yourself.

After this reflection , I went off with my small group members to LP 80 WOW day at SWAMI. I helped and chatted with a cheerful and strong Ah ma. She is 84 years old this year. She spoke Hokkien and she told me that she treated SWAMI as her home. She do morning exercise, help the nurses to clean up, push those old needy to the garden everyday. When I asked her to take a photo with me, she was still worried that her hair was not "Swee" ( beautiful in Hokkien ) and keep "combing" her hair with her hands.

Click on the hyperlink of SWAMI, you can find this Ah ma nice photos featured in the web page =)

Cute and Positive Ah Ma!! I salute you for your big heart and happy-go-lucky attitude.

Next, I talked to lady whose named is Josephine. She can only speak English and Mandarin. She had two boys. One is 11, the other is 10 this year. She suffered from stroke and need to go for physiotherapy. She told me that she suffered from depression as she do like travelling but because of the condition now , she is wheel-chair bound. She was sad with her life and she don't know what she can do... So now she already somehow pull herself up and try to do a lot of things to forget some of the sad issue that she had...

I challenged her to be confident in herself that she can do much more that she expect herself to be.. I told her my experience of her that she is a powerful and determine woman. She went silence for a few moments and she looked at me and told me this. "Ya. You are right! I must be confident and bring myself up and move on my life to a greater height and also I promise that when the next time you have a chance to come and visit me again, I am able to walk without the wheel chair!"

I was touched by her. She was thankful that I spoke to her and encouraged her.

Josephine , you are a powerful woman! Live on and shine on others !

This was the Sunday, I reflected my life.

This was the Sunday, I made a difference in other.

This was the Sunday, I enjoyed with my LP 79 mates.

This was the Sunday, I loved myself and others.

45 Random Things about myself from Facebook

2009-02-26T20:17:00.000-08:00

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?Not sure...
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?2 weeks ago :..(
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?Yes. Very neat and tidy...hahaha..
4. DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND? IF NO, WOULD YOU WANT ONE?No bf at the moment. Of cos lah..I want a tall, rich & handsome one..
5. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?Yes. I am such a lovely gal.
6. DO YOU USE SARCASM?YES!!
7. HOW DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE IN A COUPLE OF YEARS? (REALISTICALLY PLEASE)Comfortable and with lot of loving friends..and also a tall, rich & handsome bf if can lah...hahah
8. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?NO. Let me die pls...
9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?Coco Crunch
10. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?I usually wear heels wor..no need to untie one...
11. WOULD YOU MOVE AGAIN?Move what??? Everday moving different things wor...
12. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?Eyes
13. RED OR PINK?Pink
14. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?Height
15. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?School days.
16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?NO one to miss :(
17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?Yes, if you have the time and willing to spend the time..
18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?I wear shorts and w/o shoes now...
19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?Yes 93.3 FM
20. WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST?Arrogant people
21. FAVORITE SMELL?No favourite smell..As long as it don't stink, I am alright with it.
22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?Verdy..debrief.
23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?Yes.
24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?Latin Dance competition
25. HAIR COLOR?Black & Copper
26. EYE COLOR?Black
27. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAJOR REGRETS?No..don't wish to have it too.
28. FAVORITE FOOD?Chocolate
29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?Happy Endings.
30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED, AND WITH WHOM?Love matters. Tim ( free tickets..haha)
31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?Not wearing any shirt now..
32. SUMMER OR WINTER?Winter.
33. HUGS OR KISSES?Both!
34. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?Everyone
35. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?Those not tag lor..
36. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?The 5 trends that will shape the next 50 years by Richard Watson
37. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?I dont have a mouse pad...
38. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?NO.
39.WHAT LITTLE THING MAKES YOU HAPPY?A smile on the face.
40. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?What is all these???
41. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?India
42. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?Speak basic japanese and latin dance
43 WHERE WERE U BORN?Singapore
44. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?Those who i tag lor...aiyo..
45. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?Not yet wor..dont know where is he now leh...

Emotional Week

2009-02-24T22:09:00.000-08:00

Emotional Week, feeling down and wanting to give up.

Everything seems to be wrong, nothing moved.

Everyone lost in control, playing the viticm mode.

Enough is enough !

What's went wrong ? I don't know..

Is there an answer for it, I not sure...

I just know , I want this week to pass quickly.

Saturday Madness

2009-02-22T02:35:00.000-08:00

I started my Saturday morning at 8am. Went to SCC to do my community service until noon and went back home to change and rest for a while until evening time went for a run with my buddy and some of the LP mates at Ngee Ann Poly yesterday...it had been years that I never went back since graduated from there...

Thinking just to complete my 2.4km , so i run as per my normal speed...so ran , jogged and walked for 8 x 400m...Wanted to stop after this, so chat with my Advance buddy about my dating for the past few weeks ...who knows I was then being challenged by my LP buddy that I was not running @100% as I was not panting and sweating like hell...I almost fainted there...

After a while, decided to run for another round with the rest of my energy...who knows when I was about to stop , I heard a familiar voice of my LP buddy and with his hands up : "5 MORE ROUNDS!!"

My immediate thought:"WHAT???5 MORE ROUNDS...U MIGHT AS WELL KILL ME!" but I still run since was being challenged. I think I do agree that as a buddy pair we need to be an asshole and a bitch to each other to keep us in the game..hahaha..

After completing the rounds, I almost panting like hell...and my legs muscles start to ache immediately....

After dinner, wanted to go home and rest. My LP buddy was nagging 我很饱！throughout the whole journey in the car, but then still end up at Serangoon garden eating ice - cream at abt 11plus pm, then after that went to one of our seniors house to play mahjong until 3am plus...

Just before we can start our mahjong game, my dear senior actually called up and said that he was stuck at a petrol station because his car battery was flat. We need to go down n find him to jam start his car..but when we drove the car out of the gate, a call came and said that he was on the way back as he got someone to help him. We made U-turn back in front of the gate.WTF! Waste our effort and make a fool of us leh...

My dear senior, I was sorry to 包 you on the mahjong game but then you were willing to take the risk to throw the tiles to me..So I choose to win the game lor...hahaha..Don't victimise yourself when you see me again ok...You have been nagging for a while liao..Face it ! This is just a game...We play again next time round lah..But I will be careful cos I know you will take your revenge ...hahaha..Nice game after all =)

What a wonderful Saturday I had from 8am to 3am ! Tired but fun =p

Bael Fruit

2009-02-19T21:24:00.000-08:00

My friend had introduced this dried Bael fruit to me, saying that it can helps to reduce weight when it is to be taken a period of time.

You just need to boiled 3 pieces of the dried Bael fruit with 1.5 litres of water with small fire for half an hr. You can drink it plain if not you can add honey to it to make the taste better.

You can have a try to see if it works for you but pls note that execessive intake at a time may produce a sensation of heaviness in the stomach and may cause gastric discomfort.

Enjoy =)

New image again

2009-02-15T09:56:00.001-08:00

I was being told to have a change of image...

I was like WHAT ?? CHANGE AGAIN?

but I am cool with my hairstyle now wor...right now even if i wear slippers out I also need to think twice compared to last time.

So I suppose now is What can be better for me ya..

Any ideas, pls tell me and help me.

Near 100%

2009-02-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

Nobody bothers if you are near 100%, as people only care when you are at 100%.

So choose to be in 100% , if not is should be equal to waste effort ya....

Tired Vs Angry

2009-02-08T22:38:00.001-08:00

I had comments saying that I showed up as "angry"...For the fact, I really don't know why people do see me in this way...of cos I do have some people don't find that I am showing up as "angry"...

I do not wish to justify myself for the being of "angry". For those who knows me, I appreciate that how you feel me as the way I am..Thank you =) I am just "tired"...

I do not how to differentiate these two..I do not know what to do...

I am feeling emotionally tired now :(

Sorry and Thank you, Buddy

2009-02-07T05:21:00.001-08:00

Today was my 2nd LP weekend, we had it @Shines and we were doing rope course. We went thought a few obstacles course and when it came to one that we need to walk past the " A bridge", I failed my buddy. My buddy had put in 100% of his effort to bring me over, but because of my mistrust in myself, I didn't give a 100%. This resulted in my failing and also resulted to his failing too.

I cried and I was lost. I do have mixed feelings but I can't express myself out..My buddy would refer me that I was in a "autistic" mode. My senior,Ken, saw that I cried and came to talk to me. He told me I cried, because I do care..but I must learn to trust myself and have confident to have my buddy and me win together...I couldn't take any lunch..cos too emotional stress up...

2nd part is the rope course..I am scare of heights and I never done any rope course before..This makes me more frightened and I wonder even more how to make my buddy wins?

There is one course called the "The Broken Bridge" that my buddy choose to blindfold himself and trust me to bring him over. He told me he never forget because when he was blindfolded I didn't be in my contract and I didn't trust myself to bring him over. I still told him I was very scared and I dare not move. He replied to me that he was blindfolded and he can now only trust me to bring him over and win together. From there, I pushed myself and give a 100% to him and bring him over. I might not did the best job he expected but buddy I really try my very best and give it out for you at that moment.

The rest of the rope course were all challenge to me. I do remember one called "The Multi Vines". My buddy was shouting to me from below "what do you want?" I shouted I want to win together with my buddy.( He replied the same ans to me when I ask him this question from below too.)There was a moment I couldn't get hold of the ropes except for my own safety rope but I heard him shouted..Reach out! I trusted him and reached out for the rope..at times I do hold my safety rope but he was always there to ask me to let go...because I know I need to let go in order to reach out for the next rope..Holding back won't bring me to the next point...

Buddy,
Because of you, I cleared my rope course.
Because of you I know I have to shift my being to be confident and trusting in myself to guide you to win when you are "blinded"and we win together.
Because of you, I know I am powerful.

Buddy, I am proud of you as you are my result since Advance and also I am glad that you are proud of me as I am also your result since Advance.

I am proud of myself too =)

Won't Go Home Without You

2009-02-04T04:21:00.000-08:00

Won't Go Home Without You lyrics
I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
And she left before I had the chance to say
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
Hard to believe it

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of her breath, I'll never get over
And the noises that she made kept me awake
The weight of the things that remain unspoken
Built up so much, it crushed us every day

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking, why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
Hard to believe it

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I've felt I've never really showed
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

I really don't know how to use chopstick

2009-02-03T07:55:00.000-08:00

I just had my dinner with some of my LP mates...then there was this sweet guy suddenly said to me : " Can I give you some feedback?" of course you can...this was what he said : " The way you hold the chopstick with the chicken was really wrong lor..How can you go on dates in this way ?"

Everyone was laughing off the heads at me...So I tried my best to do the correct way but my fingers just don't listen to me....hahaha..

Can I be committed to do the correct way ? So I do a search on the net, and I found something interesting..

Japan had a innovative product that you need to place your fingers on the dents of this chopstick. These chopsticks will teach you the correct way to hold chopsticks naturally. I think I need one of this chopsticks to teach me how to hold chopsticks correctly..hahaha. :P
Nevertheless, learning the correct method allows you to use any chopsticks available on the table....So Let's learn bah...

Pick up the first chopstick with the middle finger and thumb. Stiffen your hand for a firm grip. Have the broad end of the chopstick lay on the part where your thumb and index finger connect. Rest the narrow end on the tip of your ring finger, and hold it in place with the tip of your middle finger. (Hint: try holding it the way you hold a pen to write. It might rest on your ring finger or your middle finger, held in place by your index finger. Place the chopstick then lift your index finger so it can hold the second chopstick.)

Grip the second chopstick with your index finger. Place your thumb over the second chopstick. Adjust your grip to a more comfortable position. Make sure the narrow tips of the chopsticks are even with each other to help prevent them from crossing or being unable to "pinch" the food.

Hold it steady. This chopstick should not move when you attempt to pick up food. Alternatively, hold the first chopstick steady and move the second (top) chopstick by moving the tip of your index finger up and down while the thumb remains relatively steady, acting like a pivot point. The top chopstick remains pressed to the index finger from the tip through the first joint. The movement comes from flexing the joint closest to the knuckle. Straightening your index finger opens the chopsticks and bending it closes them, with perhaps a slight flexing of the thumb to keep the chopsticks lined up with each other. (Note: this alternative is different from the photos in how the top chopstick is held. The movement comes from the top chopstick, not the bottom one, so the top chopstick is held so that it can be moved easily. Use the method that is comfortable for you.)

Practice opening and closing the chopsticks. Make sure the broad ends of the chopsticks do not make an "X" as this will make it difficult to pick up food.
Pick up food at a good angle (try roughly 45 degrees from the plate); slightly lift it up. If it feels unstable, put it down and try again.

Enchanted Wonderland

2009-02-01T22:33:00.000-08:00

I had my LP 79 WOW day on the 31st of Jan 2009 - Enchanted Wonderland @ Punggol Marina

It was spectacular and magnificent. After all the sweat, frustration, worries, tiredness, and the midnight oil that we burnt etc..we finally see our WOW day happened and it was really a day when we tears to happiness =)

The day started early for my event team members and me. We were there to make sure things and rides were in placed and last min check ..When the time was approaching at 3pm, and the first bus of the beneficiary home reached and we were all excited about it and our journey of making a difference to them started...........

The smiles on the children's face really melted us and all of us had enjoyed the day with them. Children are fun and innocent that they made us forgot our troubles, sadness, anger etc...I was back to my childhood time , but just that now really don't have the energy to run up and down and repeat the big "Olympic" inflatable for 5 times...hahaha..We had our finale at around 8plus and we sent off our last bus of beneficiary at around 9plus..It was an unforgettable day for LP 79 and all the people who were present in the "Enchanted Wonderland" =)

WE MADE IT , LP 79! WE HAD MADE A DIFFERENCE ON OUR 79TH WOW DAY!

Tired.............

2009-01-30T09:00:00.000-08:00

I am really getting tired with some of the things around me....When things are not moving smoothly, does that mean that when you show up , you are the one being blamed and you are suppose to clear the rubbish that is left behind?

Please, I just choose who I want to be but that doesn't mean that I am willing to take the blame for what is not being done by other people..

Army Guys

2009-01-29T05:23:00.000-08:00

All the while, I don't have a good impression for army sign-on regulars due to past experience with them... I find that they are a group of guys that don't understand the reality of the world and very hard to communicate....

They will always live in their perfect world that they take things slowly and to them why work so hard..work so hard for what...they won't be appreciated, and also no need to work so hard one..cos by a certain age you will get promoted in certain way...(so good hor...)

They are highly paid and complain a lot...look around those sign-on regulars, most of them do drive a car at young age...If you don't agree to these then I suppose you belong to the minority lor...But guys, I am sorry, most of them do fall into the majority of the above examples lor...

These few weeks, I had been working with some of the army guys and...
They really got no initiative lor...waiting for instructions before things can be done... If not they can just say give up and end of story...just don't care of others and be in their perfect world....Is this how our country is being protected by them?

Hello guys, are you leading your life in this way ??? I thought that I can change the impression of army regulars but really lor...at this moment I only see one that is different lor..You know who you are and please don't fall back to the majority...proud of you ya =)

I always thought that is my belief that army regulars live in their own perfect, wonderful world ..but now I am really doubting is it a fact..cos the experience with them is....haiz..speechless..

Happy 牛year

2009-01-26T09:56:00.000-08:00

Wow is 牛 year !!

This 牛 year I do have a lot of 1st time....

1) 1st time that I changed my bed sheet and got double pillow case instead of 1 pillow case and 1 bolster case...so my bolster got no case and I need to use the old one :(
2) 1st time went for a movie with my cousin and sister during CNY. Enjoyable outing.
3) 1st time visited to my friend's hse during CNY...Got to know more abt his wife and we two really can chat anything under the sun =)
4) 1st time being to Singapore Flyer and is on the 1st day of lunar New year...Change of luck...hehe.. ( After the shut down incident on 23rd December 08)
5) 1st time CNY i still need to do reporting to my senior for my LP journey....Although is only sms...but then still..........
6) 1st time eat steam boat, eat until the steam boat cooker spoiled...hahahaha..
7)1st time write a blog during CNY.

I believe this 牛 year will have lot and lot of my 1st time that I am going to experience ya.

Happy new Year to everyone and May you have a prosperous year!!

Genting & KL Agency Retreat

2009-01-24T08:31:00.000-08:00

I just came back from a Genting & KL trip with my manager, Weiye and also 3 of my collegueas cum friends, Francis, Rebecca & Elisha... We had a great time in Genting and KL. We had fun and laughter throughout the journey.. Never know tat , Weiye can be fun too..He was one of the joker and he sang in high pitch...hahaha....

Didn't really spend much time with Weiye, he was either soak himself in the casino the whole day or still in the casino...haha.. Except for one night he was too tired that he decided to make full use of the hotel bed in KL..

I do have a lot of fun with the rest of them..( don't get me wrong, I do have fun with Weiye too ya..)I think this group of friends are of the group of friends who is open and able to share things out very directly and no judgement was being made...

Love Hut

2009-01-16T10:57:00.000-08:00

Today i finally go to Word Press and explore the possibilties for my online business....

I am learing and using the platform of Word Press as somehow it is an easier way for me to do up a website as I am an IT idiot ( but still..i got stuck for long time)..It really took me effort, pain and sweat to get it done. Of course, with the help of my buddy, things do become smoother...but still learn it through owning it...which means hand on and get it done by myself!!!

I see lot n lot of stars....hahaha..Since this is what I really want to do, therefore no matter how difficult it was, I need to get it done ya...

The web page is still under construction, more things to be explore and to be uploaded..Will get it done soon...To find out more abt the biz, Visit the website and support me ya...

http://lovehut.wordpress.com/

Cannot Vs Should Not

2009-01-12T00:25:00.001-08:00

I got a feedback saying that I got difficulties in saying this word "Cannot"! I will always use "should not" instead. By saying "should not" am I helping the other party to have a backdoor or Am I trying to keep a image of myself ? Why I can't bring myself to say "Cannot" to others?

Cannot = No
By not being honest and say "cannot" , what good will it bring to me ? Am I going to live in the image of "nice" and torture myself to do things or even to avoid things when I don't like, just because I wont use the word "cannot".

What am I scare off? Scare to spoil my image and also being mistaken....How worst can it be? The more is be a bitch in someone's life and being mistaken, being judge... Anyway is not the 1st time being a bitch in someone's life...

I think I should come out with a movie of "No Girl" . hahaha....

What is the new relationship with "NO" ?
By saying "NO" does that mean negative impact on you?
What does "NO" bring to your life?
Is "NO" really a No-No thing in your life?

Sometimes saying No or Cannot , is the only word that I need to use so that I can get over and get thing done with. =)

I believe

2009-01-07T09:44:00.000-08:00

A Birth Certificate shows that we were born
A Death Certificate shows that we died

Pictures show that we lived!

Have a seat . . . Relax . . . And read this slowly.

I Believe...That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe ... That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I Believe...That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.I Believe...That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe... That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...That my best friend and I, can do anything, or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself..

I Believe...That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different..

I Believe...That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

The Happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything

Seven Pounds

2009-01-05T10:30:00.000-08:00

I went to watch the movie "Seven Pounds" on Sunday. It reminded me of an exercise I went through in my Advance Course.

The main lead choose to sacrifice his life and passed "his life" to seven other people that he wants to save. He vote himself to die.

I will vote myself to be alive. By giving out my organs physically, how many lives can I touch? How many organs that I have EQUAL the number of lives being touched. When I am alive, how many people can I actually touch and make a difference ? Is countless....It depend what, when , who, why and how I am going to touch people's life and making a difference in them..

No. of organs u have donated when you die Versus Countless of life you can touch when you are alive, which one will you choose?

Think about it ...there is no right or wrong answer..It only voices down to What you want to create in your life and others' life.

JCDC vs Lego 3D Animation

2009-01-03T22:10:00.000-08:00

Let us drink!

2009-01-02T02:51:00.000-08:00

I had a good quotation to share.. I came across this quotation when I look through the wine menu in one of the pub...

" He who drinks get drunk.

He who gets drunk falls asleep.

He who falls asleep does not sin.

He who does not sin goes to heaven.

So let us drink....and go to Heaven!"

This is a very powerful marketing strategy as this quotation was found at the end of the wine menu and I am one of them that will drop into this "trap" ...hahaha..What about you ?

Good bye 2008 & Hello 2009

2008-12-30T08:51:00.001-08:00

People always scare abt the year end because there is a lot of stuff to done, closing of a/c, sales production etc...And one thing that people like to do in year end is to come out with NEW YEAR RESOLUTION !

How many of us always have New Year Resolution??
Think through the whole day, spend time killing most of our brain cells and come out with brilliant New Year Resolution..but always at the end of the year, what is the result we get ? We might already forgotten what is our New Year Resolution for the year..So what is the purpose of New Year Resolution if you are not going to make it work...

Is there any NEw Year Resoultion in 2009 for you? If yes, why do you set that and how are you going to enroll yourself to the resolution and let it become a reality and not simply just a HOPE or WISH. Do you really feel for the NEw Year Resolution or you just have it set because everyone is setting for it?

For me, 2008 I ended it in a way that I never had before and I am looking forward for 2009. I never set any New Year Resolution in the past...this year I didn't set it too..cos I am already working forward for what I want for 2009...I am now in a platform that is telling me that I am breathing now, I am eating now, I am blogging now etc...Is all the NOW, and I am LIVING MY LIFE NOW...so what the year is going to end, it does not mean that your life end and restart...your life won't restart from zero when the year end....So LIVE NOW!

Mama Wei Snowy Pyjamas Christmas Party

2008-12-25T08:00:00.000-08:00

This christmas eve, I attended a MAMA WEI SNOWY PYJAMAS CHRISTMAS PARTY...We had lot of food, fun and laughter...

Having such a christmas party, it helps foster the friendship and closeness among us..For me, I am so excited that I went shopping for my pyjamas..After some shopping, I got what I want, A Winnie The Pooh nighty that match with my fan that I always carry it around with me...Although someone will always say tat I am not saving the earth by using the plastic..but then at least I use it for years liao lor...is economical ok...cheap and good!

This christmas I am proud of myself...I made a difference in people life...I don't just buy gifts for the sake of buying..but I find meaning in the gifts that I bought for them...This year, I choose to be creative , innovative, caring and daring!

I received present that is daring and sexy which never in my life that anyone will give it to me...hahaha.. I do like it but whether will I use it or not leh...hmm...It shall be a secret!

No matter what present is it..I think the most creative present ever recieved will be this cute guy having a FULL BIG PACK OF WHITE RICE! This suits him as he always said that Save the World and don't waste any food =p

Platonic Friendship Vs Love

2008-12-19T01:13:00.000-08:00

How we define ourselves in a state of Platonic friendship or in love with the opposite sex?

Some people believe that there won't be any platonic friendship between opposite sex..there will be bound that one of them will fall for the other, it is just a matter of time..

Wherever a friendship between two people of the opposite sex is seen, society makes predictions about how the friendship is doomed to fail because intimate feelings will usually get involved." Why this thought? When a platonic relationship is put in the spotlight, most people have the same view - that the relationship will get too intimate for comfort or that one half of the friendship is vying for more than just plain and simple companionship.

As for me, I am very simple. As long as I get my intention clear, I need not worry on how people going to view my friendship with the guy, I do whatever I want or I feel...But if the other party mistaken about this relationship, I need to voice out and handle the situation fast and not letting the other party dwell in deeper...Of course, said is easier than done ..Life is always a choice for you to choose. Doing nothing is also a choice, but what will it brings to you.

I believe platonic friendship exists. Intention and time is the factor for platonic friendship to be work out. How about you? =)

5 Love Languages Test

2008-12-17T21:41:00.001-08:00

I saw this test in Verdy's blog and I find it interesting so I took the test and see for myself what is my primary love lauguage will be....Result shows this :

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		9
Acts of Service:		7
Quality Time:		7
Receiving Gifts:		4
Words of Affirmation:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

What do I want?

2008-12-16T21:19:00.000-08:00

This is only the 3rd day of the LP 79 journey, and it seems that a lot of things had be happening around me. When people choose to go, we will always want them to stay with us...Why is it so? This reflect in my job now...When I choose to go, they will want me to stay....

Someone told me that I should have a big dream in me which I dare not feel as it is too big for me to realise it alone...What motivates me and make me move on?

He told me one thing that he had in mind which is " Save the world!" When he said that It suddenly touches my heart and I starts to feel for it....WHO, WHEN, WHERE and HOW to save the world?? It make me pondering and start to have a vision of my own...I start to feel for the laughters, the trust , the openness, the care and many many more.....

So what is next and what do I want to do now ?

NEW IMAGE !

2008-12-10T08:17:00.000-08:00

My old image that with me for almost 10 yrs

My new image with a fresh look ya!

Today was a very loving day for me! I got a breakthrough in my image and also feel so much love around me..I went to Heatwave @Marina Square to have a change of my hair. I reached there at 5.30pm , waiting for Verdy to meet me, but he was caught in the long queue in waiting cab so he asked me to go to the salon first.

I went in and told them I want to cut my hair and change my image. So they suggested I do a bodily rebonding, highlight and cut. So they started the work on my hair...after a short while, Verdy finally found his way to the salon...He sat beside me, chat with me at times and waited patiently for me while reading his "50 Facts that can change the world".

About 2 hrs later, Judy and Francis were here to support me too..I was so shocked to see Francis as I never expect him to be here..A while later, Ryhan was here too. The hairstylist was asking me if I am an underworld figure, and all my "men" came and support me...hahahaha....

After the rebonding, the highlighting, it came the most exciting part which is the cutting of my hair. I insisted that I don't want to cut my hair SHORT ! So the hairstylist style it to my shoulder length...After she finished, I looked at myself in the mirror and also the friends around me, they sent me a secret message "NO CHANGE LOR, CINDY TAN!" I also think that no much change lah...

The hairstylist then suggested that if I am indecisive about cutting short, I can go back and think about it and come back within 7 days to cut it. Then Verdy said : "why wait? cut it short NOW"...... then I paused for a while, I took the courage and said "OK! Cut it SHORT NOW!"..hahaha

Finally I cut it short and get a totally new image. I managed to put away the 10 years image that I am holding for...Yeah! They find that this hairstyle suits me a lot.. :P

Thank you Ryhan and Verdy for your time and financial commitment and also Judy and Francis for your support .

I love you all so much =) *Muacks

Latin Dance

2008-12-09T21:07:00.000-08:00

Latin Dance is one part of my life...I love the sensation that Latin dance give it to me =)
Now I can feel my passion of these dance even more after my injury of my left ankle..I really miss dancing...Should be able to dance soon...yeah!

Let's see what comprises the Latin Competition dance.
1)Rumba
A dance term with two quite different meanings.
First, it means Cuban event of African style, organically related to the rumba genre of Afro-Cuban music. There are several styles of this rumba, the most common being the guaguancó.
Second, it refers to one of the ballroom dances which occurs in social dance and in international competitions. In this sense, rumba is the slowest of the five competition Latin and American dances: the Paso doble, the Samba, the Cha-cha-chá and the Jive being the others. This ballroom rumba was also danced in Cuba to a rhythm they call the bolero-son.

The rumba as a social dance was introduced first in Britain and America: the versions differ somewhat. It is a slower dance of about 120 beats per minute which corresponds, both in music and in dance to what the Cubans of an older generation called the bolero-son. It is easy to see why, for ease of reference and for marketing, rumba is a better name, however inaccurate; it is the same kind of reason that led to the use of salsa as an overall term for popular music of Cuban origin.
All social dances in Cuba involve a hip-sway over the standing leg and, though this is scarcely noticeable in fast salsa, it is more pronounced in the slow ballroom rumba. This, at least, is authentic, as is the use of free arms in various figures. The figures derive from dance moves observed in Havana in the pre-revolutionary period, and have developed their own life since then. Competition figures are often extremely complex, and this is where competition dance separates from social dance.

2)Pasodoble
(literal meaning in Spanish: double-step) is a typical Spanish march-like musical style as well as the corresponding dance style danced by a couple. It is the type of music typically played in bullfights during the bullfighters' entrance to the ring (paseo) or during the passes (faena) just before the kill. The leader of this dance plays the part of the matador. The follower generally plays the part of the matador's cape, but can also represent the bull or a flamenco dancer in some figures.It corresponds to the Pasodoble dance (traditional and ballroom).Famous bullfighters have been honored with pasodoble tunes named after them. Others are inspired in patriotic motives or local characters..

Paso Doble, like Samba, is a progressive International Latin dance. The Paso Doble is the Latin dance most resembling the International Standard style, in that forward steps are taken with the heel lead, the frame is wider and more strictly kept up, and there is significantly different and less hip movement.
A significant number of Paso Doble songs are variants of España Cañi. The song has breaks in fixed positions in the song (two breaks at syllabus levels, three breaks and a longer song at Open levels). Traditionally Paso Doble routines are choreographed to match these breaks, as well as the musical phrases. Accordingly, most other ballroom Paso Doble tunes are written with similar breaks (those without are simply avoided in most competitions).
Because of its inherently choreographed tradition, ballroom Paso Doble for the most part danced only competitively, almost never socially — or at least not without sticking to some sort of previously-learned routine. This said, in Spain, France, Vietnam, Colombia and some parts of Germany to the west of the river Rhine, it is danced socially as a lead (not choreographed) dance.

3)Samba
A lively, rhythmical dance of Brazilian origin in 2/4 time danced under the Samba music. However, there are three steps to every bar, making the Samba feel like a 3/4 timed dance. Its origins include the Maxixe. There are two major streams of Samba dance that differ significantly: the modern Ballroom Samba, described in this article, and the traditional Samba of Brazil. The Brazilian Ballroom Samba is called "Gafieira".
The ballroom Samba is danced to music in 2/4 or 4/4 time. The basic movements are counted either 1-2 or 1-a-2, and are danced with a slight downward bouncing or dropping action. This action is created through the bending and straightening of the knees, with bending occurring on the beats of 1 and 2, and the straightening occurring on the "a". Samba is notable for its constantly changing rhythms however, with cross-rhythms being a common feature. Thus, common step values (in beats are):
3/4 1/4 1
3/4 1/4 3/4 1/4
1 1/2 1/2
3/4 1/2 3/4

As a ballroom dance, the samba is a partner dance. Ballroom samba, like other ballroom dances, is very disconnected from the origins and evolution of the music and dance that gives it its name. It is a form created for its suitability as a partner dance. The dance movements, which do not change depending on the style of samba music being played, borrows some movements from Afro-Brazilian traditional dances such those used in candomblé rituals and the chamadas of capoeira angola.

4) Cha-cha-cha
(in Spanish Cha-cha-chá) is a Latin American dance of Cuban origin.It corresponds to the cha-cha-cha music introduced by Cuban composer and violinist Enrique Jorrín. This rhythm was developed from the danzon by a syncopation of the fourth beat.
The dance teacher Pierre Zurcher Margolie ('Monsieur Pierre', who partnered with Doris Lavelle) from London visited Cuba in 1952 to find out how and what Cubans were dancing at the time. He noted that this new dance had a split 4th beat, and to dance it one started on the second beat, not the first. He brought this dance idea to England and eventually created what is known now as ballroom cha-cha-cha.The validity of his analysis is well established for that time, and some forms of evidence exist today. First, there is in existence film of Orquesta Jorrin playing to a cha-cha-cha dance contest in Cuba; second, the rhythm of the Benny More classic Santa Isabel de las Lajas written and recorded at about the same time is quite clearly synchopated on the fourth beat. Also, note that the slower bolero-son ("rumba") was always danced on the second beat.

However, many other numbers are syncopated on all beats, and permit dancers to do the chasse on the third beat, which some do.In traditional American Rhythm style, Latin hip movement is achieved through the alternate bending and straightening action of the knees, though in modern competitive dancing, the technique is virtually identical to the International Latin style. In the International Latin style, the weighted leg is almost always straight. The free leg will bend, allowing the hips to naturally settle into the direction of the weighted leg. As a step is taken, a free leg will straighten the instant before it receives weight. It should then remain straight until it is completely free of weight again.

5)Jive
A dance style in 4/4 time that originated in the United States from African-Americans in the early 1940s. It is a lively and uninhibited variation of the Jitterbug, a form of Swing dance.
In Ballroom dancing, Jive is one of the five International Latin dances. In competition it is danced at a speed of 44 bars per minute, although in other cases this is reduced to between 32 and 40 bars per minute.

Many of its basic patterns are similar to these of the East Coast Swing with the major difference of highly syncopated rhythm of the Triple Steps (Chasses), which use straight eighths in ECS and hard swing in Jive.Jive (or the correct term jitterbug jive) is named after a 30's Mickey Mouse cartoon where Mickey and Minnie danced a country style jitterbug. The name came from Jitterbugs being the dancers and Jive meaning 'fake'.

But, the dance steps are actually derived from country dancing. The turns and overhead moves are a direct descendant of some very old English country dances where couples cross over in a diagonal. Jive actually has nothing to do with the Lindy Hop, Charleston or any other body lead dance of the time, this is due to the dance being hand lead rather than body lead as in all the other swing dances of the 30's and 40's. Real 30's jive dancing features smooth, sliding footwork whereas later the footwork was not as smooth due to the dancers lifting their feet so as not to trip on rough floor boards or the local rough country entertainment establishments.

American soldiers brought these dances to Europe around 1940, where they swiftly found a following among the young. After the war, the boogie became the dominant form for popular music. It was, however, never far from criticism as a foreign, vulgar dance. The famous ballroom dancing guru, Alex Moore, said that he had "never seen anything uglier".

English instructors developed the elegant and lively Jive, danced to slightly slower music. In 1968 it was adopted as the fifth Latin dance in International competitions.The modern jive in the 1990's-present, is a very happy and boppy dance, the lifting of feet work and the bending of hips often occurs.The Jive is a fun and energetic latin/american dance, so technique wise you will need to be jumpy, yet keep your knees high after each chasse.Leaning with your top line will show your partner where you are going to go next.Even though this is one of the easier latin dances, you will still need to rock your hips from side to side, especially in counts 1 and 2.

A pat on the back

2008-12-09T07:21:00.000-08:00

Everyday in our life, we are always busy up and down like a bumble bee. When did we actually stop our pace for awhile and cuddle ourselves for the hard work that we had done for the day?

Today someone taught me a technique to cuddle myself, to give myself a pat on the back....

(1) Cross both your hands in front of your chest and make sure that the fingers touch your arms.
(2) Close your eyes and slowly pat yourself with your fingers on the left then follow by the right.
(3) While you are patting yourself, focus on your breathing and encourage yourself that "You are good enough" , "You had done a good job" etc..
(4) Repeat (2) and (3) for 5 mins.

This technique can helps you to focus back to yourself and get yourself up when you are down. Try it and remember that the most important thing is that YOU MUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! Ya! ;P

Fields Of Hopes

2008-12-06T23:47:00.001-08:00

Today i received a email from my friend. He sent me this japanese song "Fields Of Hopes". What does Hopes mean to you? Of cos, there will be some people will tell me "THERE IS NO HOPE"! You know who you are that belong to this group of people....

What is the meaning of "HOPE"?

hope
hop⋅ing.
–noun
1.the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.
2.a particular instance of this feeling: the hope of winning.
3.grounds for this feeling in a particular instance: There is little or no hope of his recovery.
4.a person or thing in which expectations are centered: The medicine was her last hope.
5.something that is hoped for: Her forgiveness is my constant hope.
–verb (used with object)
6.to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.
7.to believe, desire, or trust: I hope that my work will be satisfactory.
–verb (used without object)
8.to feel that something desired may happen: We hope for an early spring.
9.Archaic. to place trust; rely (usually fol. by in).—Idiom
10.hope against hope, to continue to hope, although the outlook does not warrant it: We are hoping against hope for a change in her condition.
Origin: bef. 900; (n.) ME; OE hopa; c. D hoop, G Hoffe; (v.) ME hopen, OE hopian

There are 10 explanations on how the word "Hope" is being used. Hope is only a feeling that never going to turn my vision into reality if I am going to spend all my time hoping......This is what I realise recently...

Don't just hope, if you able to convert the energy of hope into action, your dream and vision will become reality. You might be lonely in this journey but then remember is your life , own it! All the energy , all the visions , all the motivation is all within your heart. Feel it and Follow your heart :)

Love

2008-12-05T23:34:00.000-08:00

For the past 5 years, I never knew that I am holding back on love relationship. I thought I had let it go....everybody around me can feel my resistance except myself...I was wondering why do they tell me to let go and be open. I always told myself I do open but that is only forcing myself to be open. I rejected all the love given to me...I hate to be loved, I hate to be tortured by love. I want freedom from love therefore I escape from love...I never being truthful and love myself.

I hide myself in the darkest corner of my love life. I don't want to get hurt!!! But now I decided to take the courage to handle it...I want to have my past and unhappiness to go away from me..The only way out is to go through it..

I am glad that I got a buddy that made me go through and get the most inner fear of love out of me..I am now open and feel love in myself...I am not resisting in any love because I had tortured myself enough for 5 years...I am not going to waste another of my 5 years...I am going to be a lovable and confident gal. I am going to feel love again =)

Thank you Verdy , my dear buddy.

10 days

2008-12-04T21:45:00.000-08:00

In Nov 2008 , i spent 10 of the days very differently from the rest of the Nov that I spent for 27 years. I was in a place where I found the authentic me that I had always been hiding away from. The first 5 days made me aware of myself. The last 5 days brought The Voice Within out of me.

I was in a journey where I see the darkest moments of my life... I was in a journey that I had been carrying certain beliefs in myself that shut my life down.... I was in a journey where I need to handle the most fearful and hurting moments that I never wanted to handle at all... I was in a journey where I see love and warmth around me... I was in a journey where I started to trust people around me so deeply and be honest to them...... I was in a journey where friendship is built toward the highest degree in a shortest period of time... I was in a journey where I can make a difference in people's life.... I was in a journey that i feel my own life and own it..........

I never love myself at all...but now I am going to love myself because is MY LIFE! Only when I love myself, then I can feel the love and warmth around me. They are always there....

Thank you to all my dear friends that are around me for these 10 days..YOU ALL REALLY MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!